Almost a decade later

I am typing this from an iPhone 6s+ that I’ve been rocking from 2017-2019. I used to have the iPhone X but I did not like all the changes; the main deal breaker being no 3.5 mm headphone jack. My rose gold phone is the last of its kind.. the last model of iPhone to have a headphone jack.

Today, in no particular order, I worked from 4:30am-6:00pm, ate out with friends, and I am currently up at 12:42 am with very droopy eyes. It is so amazing that I have found this. I do not remember these thoughts from my younger days. Everything was a blur after the confusion started. I had no guidance and became consumed with video games and extracurricular activities. I will discuss more later. I will watch some YouTube videos on the Note 10 plus that just came out; I will knock out. Thank you.

Confused.

Things got too complicated with HoneyBunny. And now, he's no longer mine. It's been almost two weeks without him... And it's quite empty honestly. That one person who you shared your fondest memories with... is no longer there. I was the one who ended the relationship, but really, you can't just move on. Especially someone like him. From time to time, I stare at him and remember all the good times we've had; I just want to go over there and hug him. But when I talk to him, things are so difficult. I then remember why I broke up with him. I couldn't deal with it, it was too much. We argue all the time and one day, I've had enough. So I took the Single Express and got myself away from him. Unfortunately, HoneyBunny is friends with my friends. So now I haven't even hung out with my friends as much as I used too. I think I started a new slate with a new circle of friends. But it just doesn't really feel the same as before. For some reason, everything is different. I'm much more open again, no longer afraid to get physical with both genders. (I mean hugging and such, not sex.) And now there's much things to think about. Since my trusty bud over here is telling me about all the potential boyfriends that are popping up. Do you think I want to be in a relationship again? Or my mother's middle-age crisis. Or when HoneyBunny is still scolding and warning me about what I'm doing and things I shouldn't do but do anyways. I just want everything to go back to the way it was.

Courtney Stodden.

I know she's old news, but I wonder what has happened to her. To those who don't know who she is, she is a model, actress, and singer/songwriter. She comes from Ocean Shores, Washington. When she was 16, she married Doug Hutchison who just happens to be 51 years old. I'm sorry, I try to see the good that she has... But I can't seem to find any. I don't know where to start with her... But let's start with her age. She claims she's 17, but I haven't seen anyone who has botox injected in their face, dresses very lewd, or has obvious work down on her neck.

That's Courtney on the left. Now if she is 16, why are her hands very aged? You can see the lines of her veins clear as day. Now she can get all the plastic surgery and botox she wants, but you can't erase the aged veins. On the right happens to be her mother. Boy do I feel sorry for her. With a child like that, she has some haters. But what can you do when Courtney's mother is the one to sign the papers so Courtney can marry Doug? Besides the obvious plastic surgery (which Courtney and her family still deny to this day) there is also her behavior.
Good Christian girl Courtney is trying way too hard to become a sex symbol. Seen in the video below, she is always fidgeting when Doug was talking, or that weird part where she basically gets turned on by Doug and looks ready to get down with him right there on that set.

 I DON'T CARE WHAT THAT VIDEO SAYS. That marriage is a stunt. STUNT! But go ahead and watch that video and tell me what you think of her in the comments.

Bad Girls Make Me Angry.

I've always wondered why girls pick on other girls. Just because you make fun of her Double Ds won't make you magically grow two cup sizes in a night. Why do you have to demean other peoples' positives? Well not exactly all things positive... Just things They are jealous of. Example? You're so tall and beautiful and They just happen to be stubby. They don't want you to see that you're model material, in turn, being tall and elegant is being a yeti in Their minds. Or when someone does is weird, but makes that person happy. Are you jealous of the happiness you'll never have? Is you're self-esteem THAT low? Must you take away what makes other people feel somewhat HAPPY? Are you that SELFISH? Taking away happiness from people so you can feel good about YOURSELF? ONLY yourself? Why do you make fun? Why do you bully? Is it... that you're naturally crusty? Or are you on a mood swing?